Back in my AA days, I once shared that I had, at a very young age, confused alcohol with God. I got quite the laugh.
It wasn’t a joke.
You see, I was about eleven the first time I got drunk. My family was drinking wine as part of a religious observance. I very quickly made the connection that the bliss of intoxication = communion with God.
We all thirst for ecstasy. We all want Samadhi – the state of bliss that results from coming home to who we truly are. After all, our souls came from Divine love, of course we want to return there!
If you used alcohol or drugs as a method to reach ecstasy, there is nothing wrong with that. Let me say that again. There is nothing wrong with using alcohol or drugs to find bliss. All cultures have a history of using substances to achieve altered states of consciousness.
The sooner we can accept that we aren’t BAD for using alcohol or drugs, the better. The sooner we can stop looking through the lens of self-judgement the sooner we can begin to move away from dependance on alcohol. The sooner we can begin to love ourselves despite addiction, the sooner we can accept the cold, hard, truth: it doesn’t work anymore. It stopped working a long time ago. There is no bliss. We are drinking because we feel we have no choice, not because it makes us feel any type of ecstasy!
Here’s the good news. Ecstasy can still be ours. It’s right there, in that beautiful body of yours.
When we are drinking or using we are disconnected from our body. And it makes perfect sense that so many women choose the path of disassociation. After all, most of us have been molested, abused, raped or shamed. Our body is not a safe place to be. We learn very quickly that alcohol or drugs takes us out of our body and makes us feel good. Perfect.
But those who are ready to make the heroines journey back into her body will find an untapped well of ecstasy within. She needs no partner. She only needs the ability to breathe, the discipline to practice, an open mind, and a bit of patience.
Women are designed for pleasure. Ecstasy is our very nature!
But as long as we are at war with our self, as long as we are shaming ourselves for being addicted, it is very hard to tap into that reservoir of bliss.
So where to begin? The first step is self-acceptance and self-love. I know, I know. But I will hammer this in again and again and again. Forgive yourself and love yourself. It’s the only place to start. Begin to work on accepting that there is nothing wrong with the way you chose to find ecstasy. It made perfect sense. And begin to spend time with your own body, touching it, cherishing it, coming home to it.
It took me (and that innocent little eleven year old) a long time to discover that the bliss of the Divine is right here inside. I don’t need any substance to reach It.
If you are ready, I invite you to beginning walking a new path to ecstasy. The path of the Divine Feminine. The path of Shakti.
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